8 Oct 2013
Being a Gutsy Person
Alright, so I'm not going to make myself sound good on this one. I'm a coward on most situations where it takes courage. Especially when I'm dealing with people that I like.
Ask me to go cliff diving. Or sky diving. Or pretty much anything that requires courage in the face of potential danger. I can do all that without a hitch. But when it comes to talking to people and you're looking for a coward, who's your person? That's right. Me.
Other Person (OP): "Hey!"
Me: "Would you, like, you know, like, want to hang out, like?" *makes wild hand gestures while blushing furiously*
OP: Yeah, that's cool!
So there you go. All of you can go along and say that I'm a coward in the face of meeting other people. Not only do I overuse the word "like", I blush uncontrollably. And I stutter. Which makes the whole situation even worse. It makes me look as if I have a speech impairment, or a mental problem. Which I don't, of course.
The thing is I don't have to even "like" you to stutter. Although if I think you're cute then it would probably help to make me blush harder. There's this common saying with people who know me well that I tend to turn puce (definition here) whenever I talk to someone I like. Normally, I would deny any such thing, but I would be a liar if I said it was completely untrue.
But yeah. There was this one situation where I wanted to see if this one college girl wanted to hang out. The way I stuttered wasn't even funny. It was just plain embarrassing. I felt like I was annoying her but I wanted to talk to her anyway.
I guess the main gist is to have guts to actually go ahead and say something. Although if you're like me, it's a scary thing. Mainly because I'm afraid that people will think I'm weird and not talk to me anymore. The fear is real guys. I guess the word is less fear and more paranoia. It's the curse of living in a time where everything can basically be solved on the computer.
So to all of you out there who have become so used to being on the computer: go out and talk to someone. I don't care if you talk to your neighbor's cat, just go out there. The real world won't hurt you if you try.